This is a continuation of the previous post detailing the weirdest wedding traditions you likely took part in. My thoughts were so expansive I saw the need for two posts. Take no offense. These are not accusations. Merely observations.Read More
Weddings make up 90 percent of my video editing work. It seems like there isn't a week out of the year where I'm not receiving wedding footage to cut together. So I've become accustomed to the rhythm and traditions of many weddings.
And let me tell you something: Weddings are weird.Read More
This post is my therapy. Hopefully it provides insight and encouragement to those experiencing similarly. I’ve learned to love process, and this is a glimpse into the grieving process, to my grieving process
If you’re friends with me and my wife, it is no secret that we have suffered more than a few miscarriages. A few weeks ago we had another.
This one felt very different though. This one came after developing a plan with the fertility doctor and my wife taking treatments to try and make the pregnancy a healthy one. This after seeing previous doctors about our infertility struggles. This felt like it was final. We can’t have children.
What sort of thoughts swirl through your mind when faced with this reality? What challenges do your core beliefs experience? What plans come crashing down?
Guys, the weeks after our latest miscarriage has been devastating. My wife and I experienced new lows along the way, and have been fighting against depression and anxiety. It's been a battle.
I’m more fatigued these days. I sleep more. I’ve lost interest in many things that brought me joy. I’ve lost motivation to be better, to strive for more, to challenge myself, to achieve goals, because what’s the point?
What’s the point?
And a terrible thing stirring about is the residual guilt that comes from the lack of productivity. No videos, no writing, no creativity. It’s like referred pain in your neck that’s coming from tense muscles in your back. It feels like you can’t do anything about it, even though you know what the problem is. I wish i could just skip ahead a year. Many who feel the same also desire this.
About a month has gone by, and a few counseling sessions later i’m crawling out of the bottom and finding myself on the upswing. I feel less dread. I’m working better. I have God to thank, and my wife to lean on. It hasn’t been lost on my thoughts, but i’m already starting to learn to live with the reality.
Which is what I've learned about experiencing loss. It doesn't hurt any less. You just learn to live with it. There's a new normal now. This normal is a life with 5 kids I'll never know. I'm accepting it more and more with each day. It still makes me sad, but it doesn't mean I can't enjoy what I once did.
The grieving period is a time where its okay to not be 100% operative. It’s okay to be scraping by. It’s okay to be sad, confused, angry. It’s okay to change your routine. It’s okay to get away for a bit. This is normal. People experience it and have experienced it for centuries.
These days I'm doing more of the activities that brought me joy. I'm making videos again. I'm writing. I'm coming up with ideas and learning about real estate. Bit by bit I'm crawling back, ready to get back to it with scars that remind me of where I've been.
There's no shortcut. You have to waddle in it for a while. Cut yourself some slack and live in that moment. There's no way around it, only through it.
Savannah Georgia, Home of sweet tea and sweet potatoes. (not really) A beacon of the south, a diamond in the rough. (?)
We took a trip to Sarasota Florida in September and made a stop in Savannah Georgia on the first day of our travels.Read More
Where I went for college, they didn’t adhere to the typical university lifestyle. To say the least, it was different. But was it worth it?Read More
My wife and I have been discussing our plans for the next year and have suggested some pretty stark changes to our everyday lifestyle. In short, we've been talking a lot about working remotely and traveling... full time.Read More
I find it helpful and insightful to get other peoples experience at different companies. It can give an inside look at how the company treats its employees and what type of environment it fosters for its day-to-day work life.Read More
When you don’t live close to a major league baseball stadium, it can be expensive and time consuming to see major league players live. Sometimes the best you can do is to see a minor league game with highly touted prospects and witness the potential of stardom.Read More
Lots to update you on. Lots to hear. Lots to celebrate.Read More
We decided to hit the road all of 5 miles to stay at the Kimpton Cardinal Hotel for the weekend. We knew it was a nice place yet we were still surprised at how great our stay was.Read More
Any action you take on your goals will immediately propel your chances of success skyward. Inaction ensures mediocrity.
All eggs in many baskets. This includes your proficiencies and skills. What are you good at that could serve your income?
A coworker said this to me one day and it has changed my life. How often do we avoid trying something new? How often do we skip the learning?
2017 has been a nice ride so far. I’ve been keeping track of my goals and as we surpass the first quarter and approach the half way point, I thought I would share four lessons I’ve learned.
I touch on career goals with video production, savings obstacles with money, and the challenges of productivity and how I’ve learned to combat them.
Don't confuse what you want with what you need and vice versa.
Failure is an opportunity to learn.Read More
When you’re 18 you don’t know much. I don’t hold that against myself, but I hope I could help current 18 year-olds with 29 pieces of advice and tips I would give to my younger, much more ignorant, 18 year-old self. These tips are geared towards career, finances, money, skills, lifestyle, habits and choices.Read More
We had the privilege of spending some time in Atlanta Georgia for a weekend. Tim Hall and Dustin Gooch were kind enough to show us around Ponce City Market, a fantastic rehabbed Sears warehouse building used for apartments and retail stores.Read More
I discuss the whirlwind of the few days in Atlanta and discuss what it means for us moving forward.Read More
I hope you guys have enjoyed the Disney Vlog series! This is the last entry from this location, but you can expect more vacation and destination vlogs in the future from various other locations!Read More